To and From, , , as I am. . .

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish...

2012-02-03T08:25:00.000-08:00

kinda weird I'm happy but... you are married I do not know how this will look... I though you were joking I do like you a lot but did never cross my mind it would go pass flirting... who have my tweeter or FB would notice it last week... I do not know why is it happening now,,, this song kinda came out at the right time,,,( I know when you are in this situation there are always a song that was like written for you...)
Katy Perry - The One That Got Away ... here is the lyrics at the bottom : just for fun:::

hahaha I guess I did not tell the whole story,,, try to have an open mind on this please ( i don't really care hahaha if you know me you know i don't hahaha)
ok to make we write easily i would replace the word the person with MR ... Again just for Fun)

All the thing diee say true, let see lets put it on the list:
I have too many scandals : well its true ,,,i never tried to count how many person at any given time... MR say flirting is also not allowed ... (T-T) i don't think i can do that
end of list i do not want to remember the rest...
I do not know why... with all the thing going ups and downs in my life,,, it make me remember the one person who i know love me,,, well i hope so... this is SMR... i don't really know is this person really do but this person act like it... would wait would help would stick beside me thru the ups and downs,,, i wasn't faithful then ... now i kinda regret for letting this one go...

there are two more surprisingly at the same time,,, :p
its MZP and AH... its look like I seeing ABC till Z hehehe...
any way it 3 years,,, I love those two... or like, never did manage to say that word... and i did a stupid thing by saying that its only when we are in collage ... no more after that,,, adusss DeMmm... but we did have fun :)

hmmmm what else is going in my life,,, hmmm
I found this to read on my dad desk,,,
'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says

after reading this make me thinking am I doing something i like??? or even love???
and what do i want to do???
i guess i do not know where to start or even what i want,,,
I think I have a book for this... but i did not finish it yet... huhuhu,,,

i guess i have to put a game plan,,,
start of CV??? oe Resume???
then???

The One That Got Away lyrics
Songwriters: Gottwald, Lukasz; Martin, Max; Perry, Katy;

Summer after high school when we first met
We make out in your Mustang to Radio head
And on my 18th birthday we got that chain tattoos
Used to steal your parents' liquor and climb to the roof
Talk about our future like we had a clue
Never plan that one day I'd be losing you

And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in other life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

I was dreaming you were my Johnny Cash
Never one, we got the other, we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you, I put those records on, whoa
Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the blues
It's time to face the music, I'm longer your muse

And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

The one, the one, the one
The one that got away

All these money can't buy me a time machine, no
Can't replace you with a million rings, no
I should've told you what you meant to me, whoa
'Cause now I pay the price

In another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

The one, the one, the one, the one

And in another life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

Mine to wish,,,

2011-12-18T23:32:00.000-08:00

HoHoHo,,,

since X'Mas is Creeping up,,,
What are my wish list,,,hmmm...limit to 9 lor...

2012 X'mas Wish list:::
1:Asus Transformer eeePad ( like the one Kak ina took T-T )
2:A new Watch
3:Tag Heuer Jacket
4:A New Okley Spec
5:a New A/X Spec
6:A trip tO a Place I can Snow Bord
7:A trip tO a Place I can Sand Bord
8:---(Have to Think hmmm ::: a New LapTop!!!
9:You By mY side >>> Kinda corny... hahaha

I have been re posting this while adding the list...

2012 Resolution and Aims List (kinda sum up with my Birthday Resolution hahaha)
Hmmmm

01: maintains the diet with a slight changes
02: start my PMI course 03: Have my life in order again
04: look for a better life
05: prepare to move out
06: save up for something i want "ondaburu astaburu allthburu"
07: Get back in shape
08: a new padhahaha ok::: i'm a bit materialistic last year resolution did not complete because i

try to cut out the materialistic in me,,, only manage up to 6,,, huhuhu,,,

09: A new Watch hehehe since santa did not give me anything for X'mas so I'm putting it on my resolution and aims list,,,
10:Tag Heuer Jacket
11:A New Okley Spec
12:a New A/X Spec
13:A trip tO a Place I can Snow Bord
14:A trip tO a Place I can Sand Bord
15: don't live in the past for too long,,, time to move on,,,
16: Finish learning Either Russian ,,, Greek ,,, or Italiano 17: Finally, take the word ‘someday’ and ‘soon’ out of your vocabulary…go out and live life in the moment.
18: Create something for the heck of it. Paint a picture, write a poem or start a garden — not because you'll get paid for it, but because you want to. You'll find satisfaction in achieving personal goals and motivation to keep trying new things.
19:Resolve to see the bright side. Every cloud has a silver lining. Setbacks are part of life. This is the year that you can adjust your attitude to look for the possibilities rather than the problems. This is a resolution you should start before Jan. 1 if you tend toward pessimism
20: Take more pictures to get out of amateur class...
21: Keep on not judging others!!! as follow only god can judge me...
22: To Blog more hehehe ::: well its to stop stress out hehehe :::
23: want to travel to Thailand
24: to cook more!!!
25: To just go for it, don't look back...
26:

End Let see How much we manage to complete :phehehe here are some celeb new year resolution heheheOprah's 2010 Resolution to not make a resolution - Instead of making a resolution for 2010, Oprah vowed to stick to the practice of journaling. This "live in the now" method consists of using a journal to assess success and failure.Miley Cyrus's 2009 Resolution to get in less trouble - Renowned actress and singer Miley Cyrus wished to get in less trouble with her bosses at Disney. The time she was caught on video hitting a salvia bong or the time that she called herself a stoner were probably hindrances to this resolution.
Kim Kardashian's 2011 Resolution to stay single - "I want to try to be single my whole year of being 30," Kim disclosed to Rachel Ray.It appears that the reality star is ending her year that way, so that counts, right? Maybe she can just forget about her 72-day marriage to Kris Humphries. However, Kim knew deep down that her resolution was far-fetched."I don't think that's going to last because that's just how I am. But the fact that I'm trying is a big step for me."

----------

ok resolution over now,,, have you ever notice that people judge other but they are doing it them self... i've been seeing it in facebook and tweeter...they marking others but they them self doing the same thing but they just self-justified it for them

How with out you in my life...

2011-12-11T07:50:00.001-08:00

Hahaha, I've been notice if you can't even put a plate of rice for your self, only want hand out from other, why some (the word is some) of them want to bring a child into this world? Some people say that is human nature, some say lack of education, but that's just common sence, , , the things that goven this is basic education, for example the republic of China had a good idea the goverment do the thinking for them, , ,

Hahaha enought about other people... Its just something came to my mind, , ,

Well its been a while since I join the "$@$@u team" even not all are here... But kinda misz the feeling hehehe,,, I don't remember if I told the ex Maiya... Well early this year well not early but around August I think I hook up with her again... I was bored " but mainly because she wakes me up... The rest I don't really care much the continues not beliving the continues asking and reconfirming... " the full story is that I know her from my younger sis(not real sis) at that time I was with someone else well two others :p ... No judging you would do it to if you got a chance... Then she was also with someone else... They got a problem as usual me like a hawk on a prey... Still no judging please... This was Two month before I left for sunderland there where I actually have time to start blogging...

Any how now its been 4 times I broke off with her she still keep on coming back arhhh... over the weekend my sis (same person as the above) drob into the city, so yesterday she ask to catch a movie thank god I did not say yes I thought my sis was coming along I called her up and she was already back to her home town... Demmm... Almost got trap...

Anyway yesterday was fun tomorrow have to fly to Borneo island for work... Not really looking forward to it...

Life over all looking up, so not complaining... Just I do Miss you... Not the psycho M... Every time we accidental meet we both stop just look at each other and look away...

But inside my heart is in pain, I do not know how to go on like this...

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.1

By JaN!!!

2011-11-19T05:30:00.000-08:00

For the last few month I have meet up with a few people,one thing is keep on repeating "what Happen to you?" " You must be very happy" and my fav " You are getting bigger!!!" Demmmm...
Wish that I can eat as normal!!! huhuhu

Sausage With Apple And Sage
Ingredients

2 sausages, cooked
2 tablespoons olive oil, more as needed
1 Granny Smith apple, peeled
2 tablespoons butter
Pinch sugar
24 small sages leaves

Method

Slice the sausage into 1/4-inch/1/2-cm inch slices on the bias. Cut the apple into 24 cubes.

Heat the oil in a sauté pan and fry the sausage slices on both sides until golden brown, remove to a platter. Wash the pan before melting the butter in the pan for the apples.

Add the sugar, and fry the apple cubes, tossing occasionally, until golden on all sides. Add a little more oil to the pan, if needed, and fry the sage until slightly crisp, 30 seconds to 1 minute.

Lay a sage leaf on each sausage slice. Top with a cube of sautéed apple. Pierce with a pick. Serve.

Can't wait to try this one,,, but have to wait till January,,, my aims is to get back in shape by my birthday!!! hehehe

But I can try this...
Ingredients

1 egg yolk, at room temperature
Pinch salt
2 teaspoons grainy Dijon mustard
About 1 cup/250 ml grape-seed oil (or vegetable, canola, or peanut)
Lemon juice, to taste
Pinch white pepper
1 tablespoon olive oil, for frying
24 shrimp, peeled, but with tail intact

Method

Whisk together the egg yolk, salt, mustard, and vinegar in a roomy bowl.

To add the oil, start whisking the yolk mixture and let the oil fall from the spout, drop by drop, until you have achieved a thick, velvety mayonnaise. Taste it.

Add lemon juice, salt, and pepper until the balance is to your liking.

Heat the olive oil in a sauté pan.

Fry the shrimp until just cooked through and still juicy.

Arrange the shrimp on a platter with the mayonnaise in a dish alongside, for dipping.

..........................................

huhuhu.... how I wish I can eat What I want with out feeling guilty...

To live on ,,,

2011-09-30T22:14:00.000-07:00

the question is "New Life is it working out?" well it not how I imagine it would be but,,, heck its still ok,,, but i guess it would not be going on forever,,, a lot of people are moving on for almost two years since I came back,,, well even when i was still back in my new land,,,( i miss the life there going to tell this in a bit...) A lot of my friends are getting married more then 10 of them are my good to best friends,,, while this year (and its not over yet) a number of my friends and families have kids ( the number is above 15,,, more then i could count hahaha...) in September it self got 4,,, latest update,,, 5,,, huhuhu,,, I want a baby!!! hehehe but I do not want to get married...
remember when I say that I want to move on from that person well I think now I had move on from that person, its not that we are not friend but,,, just quittance just leave it at that... now I got 5 close person ,,, 3 are friend -ish with each other but they got issues each other,,, i told them I do not want to be in the middle or involve in what ever it is... well 2 more,,, hmmm ,,, one is still back in Glasgow :( ... the other one is working with me,,, hehehe but we are both busy with our own life,,, thus did not much spent time together,,,but we chat a lot,,, hehehe...
Lately,,, I feel like being alone,,, its not that I don't want anyone beside me its just,,, the time to grow up and do what i want to do with my life,,,
Imiss the time where I do care about arts,,, culture and Food... now I have to get back in shape,,, before my next birthday... this is my aims,,, Thus I did let A.D take over control of thing for a while... Now i‘m back but tired because shifting between realms ia hard,,,

without anyone,,,

2011-08-05T23:37:00.000-07:00

where are all the result from what we tried, to make things better between us, its just you and me no more just us, hmmm,,, i know that i've been pushing you away, well in one way this is a good thing,,, now in my mind there is less and less of you...

now i got that out of the way...

so far my life is getting better as in sence that i'm enjoying the people around me,,, all the new aquentance, even its kinda weird that they know about me way before i know about them, i not complaing but face it weird that they know about you more than you know them... they are my best friend, friends,,, well it does not matters any more,,, i've never understand why people do what they do,,, and thank god that i've never said that i would never tried those things,,, or else its just a lie to one self,,, i know those things are bad for me,,,but hey I'm happy,,, now that i'm alone again,,, i do not know why i kinda feel the higher you go the less fun and you become more boring person,,, hmmm,,, this make ponder what do I want to do with my life,,, i'm not judging anyone,,, this is what i observed,,, i don't want a hard life or anthing like that and pray to god that i would never,,, but i want a fun life,,, i know i've been complaining a lot,,, but as far as the real world knows i've never complains,,, i'm missing one of my good friend,,, huhuhu he has to work too far away,,, ,

new me???

2011-06-14T08:15:00.000-07:00

Well let see whats new in my life it been a while hehehe my work life the same as before only i hear a few rumors about a re designation, but the new designation have not been confirm yet,,, thus,,, and no fun,,, since i might not be able to meet people,,, huhuhu... the fish died again,,, huhuhu,,, ohhh ya I join a gym a few months ago,,, the first few month i often go,,, but lately been going less and less,,,huhuhu trying to find the right motivation, hope fully next week my motivation will come,,, :p one thing I would like to know,,, am I that gullible ??? one call one text from you,,, i would do it... I know you would never read this,,, but to who I know, know the story are reading this,,, but I never told the full length,,,
I have change ever since you came to my life, before you i never just roll over for anything, now from this day one I will make a it happen no longer need you by my side, I know no one can replace you in my heart nor you can replace lili, I still do not know why you two have the same effect on me. that's why I have to cut you out of my life,
yosh!!!
time to slowly to cut you off,,, first thing first I have to move!!!
* P.S: picture not related in any way...

-WOrky stuff-

2011-04-28T06:23:00.000-07:00

For the last 2 month I have been going back and forth about this,,,

I got afew offer already, but as I talk to a few of my co-worker...

the place I work now is not that bad,,, its just no trill no, I know if I go any where else the environment won't be the same, since the joy of working there is unexplainable,,,

one way to explain it is by telling what someone told me before she leaved the company bare in mind she only have work there less than 3 month... " ajoy akak sebenarnye tak nak pergy sebab environment sine best but akak tak tau la camne nie..."but she have to think about her family the place which offer her got lots more benefit than here... I know she had make the right decision in leaving,,,

the Other one who I can say was my mentor, when he send the resignation letter I saw a paper where he was hiding and the thought did cross my mind,,, anyway after it has been confirm we got to talking,,, it occur to me the managment here does not really care about their employee, since when he talk to the CFO he told me he just ask where is he going and thats it, no counter offer or just like asking is that place better or anything, furthermore (maybe I've been learning body and gesture language ) when we had the company farewell lunch the CEO just like ok u'r going bye the one who tried (but did not work) to look concern was the CFO, the CEO just say the CFO has said it... I know he has said 1 go 10 will come in,,, well if you said that where is the HSE officer??? 3 has left now??? where are the other 30??? at least 10?? or just one???

Ok from now on I have to set my dateline for this part of my life,,, I know I have not plan my life ever since I know I won't live that long,,,

I know I have said this over and over I do not want my decision to be base on you... so but,,,

Not I my state of mind,,,

2011-01-23T23:28:00.000-08:00

This has been in my head for a while now,,, I know its not something to brag or talk out loud,,, not LoL,,, hehehe,,,

anyway, I usually ask my self where do I see my self in 5 year or just at year end,,, this does not mean where I'll be sitting or live in year end,,, its just my life in general... I have lost my aims so now I wonder what should I do,,, and I don't want one of those bull shit stuff about getting married,,, have kids,,, bla bla bla,,,

Anyway to something more important,,, it has been a while since I applied anywhere, thus its kinda weird if I apply any where... I know people say I should, but ...hmmm how should I start... Got a weird raise this month why I do not know why... The weird part is most of them got lower even the one I thought would get higher... naughts said... Read the privious post next this should come first but I did not click publish :p

New Year Resolution for 2011

2011-01-09T03:46:00.000-08:00

Usually the first week I have already post something,,, regarding new year resolution,,, but I was busy and writing something deep,,,

anyway,,, what new year resolution for 2011,,,

I don't want to put any materialistic stuff in this year resolution,,, I usually do,,, hmmm,,, I was stump at number 5,,, but just thought off it,,, hmmm 6???

this year my new year is,,,

1; Have fun,,, I only have another four years to go,,,

2; Revert to my old self with a bit of improvement...

3; Reconnect to those who are important to me,,,

4; Get back into shape!!! by March,,,

5; Try to stop people from asking me the when date,,, ( will never want to get married,,, its a waste off my F*%king life)

2010-10-29T18:17:00.000-07:00

allowfullscreen="true" width="300" height="250" wmode="opaque" >

ok this time I'll write something serious,,,

If you can't open your mind for any possibilities this topic won't be suitable for you...

first I'll define some few stuff to make things more clearer...

Atheism, in a broad sense, is the rejection of belief in the existence of deities. In a narrower sense, atheism is specifically the position that there are no deities.Most inclusively, atheism is simply the absence of belief that any deities exist.Atheism is contrasted with theism, which in its most general form is the belief that at least one deity exists.The term atheism originated from the Greek ἄθεος (atheos), meaning "without god", which was applied with a negative connotation to those thought to reject the gods worshipped by the larger society. With the spread of freethought, skeptical inquiry, and subsequent increase in criticism of religion, application of the term narrowed in scope. The first individuals to identify themselves as "atheist" appeared in the 18th century.

while we were discussing this issue we have divide this belief in to two region one of these is people who govern their life by logic while the other govern by humanistic influence...

*taken from wiki (where else quick grab hehehe)...

hmmm,,, that exactly not my point,,, I was about to point out how we live our life today,,, we even as we say we are a man/women of god... this got me thinking,,, as I go on please have and open mind regarding these matter, I'm writing this stuff base on my opinion...
don't judge other people since your opinion may not be the only one...

If you notice the religion sense this days is kinda skrude ,,, this is taken from a book i've read by Anne Rice,,, "Blood and Gold,,," one of the phrase was " allow me to point out what other historians have also pointed out, that before Christianity, the entire ancient world lived in kind of religious harmony. No one persecuted anyone else for religion." I know they the one who started it but the religion come after it or associated with it tend on doing the same thing,,, So this got me thinking if this

2010-09-17T06:14:00.000-07:00

I have to agreed,,,
different matter it was great meeting the old gang,,, i miss all time we had laughing and just had fun,,, I wish we can live like again,,,
Talk to another great friend,,, I really miss the old time,,, not just thatwe got Plans!!!
hehehe...

Other matter,,,

ok after what you told me,,, make me think,,,
you said you are force to get married because of your parent,,,
and I will believe you because i can't stop thinking of you,,,
I hope we can get around this,,,

Ok other matter,,,

this going to sound a bit sappy,,, but seeing your name coming up on my phone,,, make me all over happy,,, its been a week,,, since i saw you,,, 3 days since we talk,, hehehe,,,
know that I'll do almost any thing for you,,,

other matter,,,

What I want is someone who does not need me just wants me,,,

Adeen Chapter,,,

2010-08-21T18:09:00.000-07:00

Had a great weekend,,, just chilling,,, hehehe,,,
This got me thinking,,, I know my philosophy before is don't look back , no regret cause what ever happen is what things are suppose to be,,,
ok it has been a while since i wrote any thing so,,,, let see where to start,,,

K ...

to begin with my call sign is Adeen,,, I just inform that I'm going to like doing this,,,hehehe...
haven't got all the detail yet,,,

K,,,

I had celebrate Eid,,, a few dayz ago its was cool,,, first day all over KL,,, and Shah Alam,,,next day from KL to Teluk Intan,,, stop here and there,,, third day was N.Sembilan,,, Forth was Home with people coming one after another,,, got to cook love it!!! but did not prepare to cook so make all the simple stuff ,,,love it,,,

K,,,

got a new phone and loving it,,, hehehe,,, I'm not going to change to any other os than android !!!

K,,,

Saying I 'm loving it making me want to get McD,,,hehehe,,,

A.D last time,,,Life Time,,,

2010-08-09T15:42:00.000-07:00

just a quick post,,, hmmm,,, every time around this year, I have to go and "sleep",,, by looking at the sky,,,I know with uncertainty,,, that I might not wake up till the next cycle ,,, but that again with uncertainty... I did enjoy part of this life so,,," before I go to "sleep",,, to my predecessor,,, enjoy the moment I had a good 9 or 8 run ,,,
-With Light govern the road to you
A.D

Just watch me burn,,,

2010-08-06T20:18:00.000-07:00

Life in a bubble:
No life so far since to busy with work,,, went out once with a few friends,,,Naim B'day,,, Meet up with with hudd,,, have to meet up with him again soon,,, lost a good friend last week,,, tried to occupy my self - missing that person everyday,,,arhhh can't talk about it too pain full. . .I lost a lot when I came back and when I left so trying to build it up again.

Work liKe DogS of HeLL:
Work all week long for the past few week,,, huhuhu,,, once this done I'm off for 3 days or more,,, Somebody just pi55 me off, there are something are out of our control, and this cause of this is also not my fault, so don't bark at me,,, go and bark to the wall,,, you sitting next to it,
All in All:
I stole this from some one,,,

Cross Out the Things You Have Done

Graduated High School.-done
Kissed someone.-done
Smoked cigarettes. -done
Got so drunk you passed out. -done
Rode every ride at an amusement park.-done
Collected something really stupid.-done
Gone to a rock concert.-done
Helped someone.-done
Gone fishing.-done
Watched four movies in one night.-done
Gone long periods of time with out sleep. "define long if 4days count than" -done
Lied to someone.-done
Snorted cocaine. Not Yet
Failed a class.-done
Smoked weed. -done
Dealt drugs. -Not Yet
Taken a college level course.-done
Been in a car accident.-done
Been in a tornado.-Nope
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).-done
Watched someone die.-done
Been to a funeral.-done
Burned yourself.-nope
Ran a marathon.-done
Your parents got divorced.-Nope
Cried yourself to sleep. -done
Spent over $1000 in one day. -done
Flown on a plane.-done
Cheated on someone.-done
Been cheated on.-done
Written a 10 page letter.-No way
Gone skiing.-done
Been sailing.-done
Cut yourself. -done
Had a best friend.-done
Lost someone you loved.-done
Shoplifted something.-Nope and will never
Been to jail.-Nope
Dangerously close to being in jail.-done
Had detention.-Not that I can recall
Skipped school.-done
Got in trouble for something you did’t do.-done
Stolen books from the library. -done
Gone to a different country.-done
Dropped out of school.-done
Been in a mental hospital.-done
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.-done
Had an online diary.-done
Fired a gun.-done
Gambled in a casino.-done
Had a yard sale.-Not yet
Had a lemonade stand.- "If it those not sell lemonade??? but drinks or food those this count? if Yes "-done
Actually made money at the lemonade stand."Refer above" -done
Been in a school play.-done
Been fired from a job.-Nope
Taken a lie detector test.-done
Swam with dolphins.-Not yet
Gone to sea world.-Not yet
Voted for someone on a reality TV show.Did-"Fara DIna ( a friend from school years)"-done
Written poetry.-done
Read more than 20 books a year.-done
Gone to Europe.-done
Loved someone you couldn’t have.-done
Wondered about your sexuality.-done
Used a coloring book over age 12.-done
Had surgery.-done
Had stitches.-done
Taken a taxi.-done
Seen the Washington Monument.-Not Yet
Overdosed.-done
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.-done
Had a drug or alcohol problem.-done
Been in a fist fight.-done
Suffered any form of abuse.-done
Had a hamster.-done
Petted a wild animal.-done
Used a credit card.-done
Gone surfing in California.-Not Yet
Did “spirit day” at school.-Nope
Dyed your hair.-done
Got a tattoo.-Not Yet
Had something pierced.-No comment
Got straight A’s.-done
Been on the Honor Roll.-Nope
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.-done
Taken pictures with a webcam.-done
Started a fire.-done
Gotten caught having a party while parents were gone away.-Nope

I could really use a wish right now

2010-07-09T06:46:00.000-07:00

Life in a bubble:
nothing too new,,, hmmm,,, can't think of any,,, no fun still,,, huhuhu,,,
but I do got something seriouse in mylife, to quote from a song “I could use a dream or a genie or a wish, To go back to a place much simpler than this!” I'm not saying that any thing wrong with my life right now, its just not what I want,,, but if i hold to something that might ...it will come to pass,,, I got a feeling i'll die young,,, and hoping for it,,,I won't kill my self or any thing,,, its just a feeling that i had ever since I was a kid,,,I know i don't belive in mistake only things you do and you don't do...( lots of here and there quote )

Work liKe DogS of HeLL:
Have you ever notice that (only apply to those who had work or study) when you work you have less and less time for your self compare when you studying,,, even if you work from 9 to 5.30 while you study also almost the same 9 to 5,,, I'don't know,,, I like my work, no complain yet,,, but feel like some of my time are loss and don't know where it goes or what happen to them,,, hmmm,,,
lately I 've been doing two jobs, not like it make any diffrence in time management, its just weird that I can't say i'm doing work but can't explain it, its just some thing personal and thing I need to do for now. most of the people around me, asking me to change my my job to something more well my old style, but I don't know I kinda enjoying my self now, I've meet some one, a co-worker ( well you can say that) I got talking to him, and I don't know why its kinda cool got to talk to someone who don't got offended to easly, some of the people i've work with got offended too easy,,, and its kinda boring hey your old I got that its just that I'm not the suckup type of guy, I talk the way I talk.

All in All:
I mis some part of my life i mis some people who aren't around me anymore,,, starting a new network is no fun,,,
P.s the picture above was my last two year hallowen outing,,,

tried new stuff

2010-07-02T05:07:00.000-07:00

as always i've never no how to start, So here we go,,,
after this I'll divided this post to hmmm three or two part,,,
Life in a bubble:
Work liKe DogS of HeLL:
All in All:

hehehe ,,, the first one let see how it go,,,on sand on,,,

Life in a bubble:
had not done any thing cool than usual,,, hmmm,,, let see did I told you about the MuJi wedding ,,, well it was great got to meet alot of people who i don't remember from school, but i do feel abit sad seeing him getting married, I guess I did not see that coming,,, but it was a fun trip back to JB. i went there with apat,,, we stayed at new york hotel, which I did not know existed, I also went to BBU bring lots of memory back,,,and make me wonder what would happen if I never left for Kluang,,,
Anyway did lots of hobbies stuff, got an aquarium from uncle ask pasir to free the fish to a near by pond, and got a lots of fish hehehe,,,

Work liKe DogS of HeLL:
On the work front well things are weird, things was going well,,, but now huhuhu its to boring because things are the same-o same-o,,,

All in All:
hmmm,,, still tried to the one thing when that one thing is done i'll info on that one,,,

To start a new chapter again,,,

2010-06-11T18:22:00.000-07:00

as I always say each time I close one chapter in my life I'll always open a new one, with to from the pass to be by my side ,,, lately ,,, I did not enjoy their company, so I think i better off on my own,,, its not that they are not with me, its just that I want to be alone for a while since they have take care of me thou out this time,,, but i need to be alone for now,,, we will still meet once while but not so often as we should,
I had a good week I think,,,
Enjoyed the weekend, my two days of leave,,, and the night out with a friend,,, from some where north east,,,hehehe,,,
work front all good,,, funny,,,thingy,,, weird thingy,,, had enjoyed the lunch time,,,
hmmm tried to go on a diet,,,but have no luck yet,,,
don't know why lately fish and aqua garden craze,,,

Lets start things a new,,,,

2010-06-03T17:43:00.000-07:00

hmmm I gust this will be a long one,,, care to read or read part by part only, or up to you as usual just by pass the whole thing,,,

ok start of I know earlier i said i can no longer write any thing,,, well i think it thru just prufff,,,

been a bit busy with work but its ok kinda fun,,, people kinda know I'm busy and not well,,, so they just stay clear out of the way,,, but,,, hmmm all is well now,,,

there is i personal thing i guess i want it to get out of my mind,,, why out of all the people i know i kinda like you the most,,, even if we only talk for 2 hours ,,, and that's it i can't get you out of my head, well what you did is a good thing i don't want to be the other person,,, i just hope all the best to you,,, hope you change for the batter part of you,,,
in that note,,, i would like to say sorry to you,,, we had a good run what now 4 years? on and off,,, it just that ,,, because of this i can't be with you for now,,, and i know you would not like it if we are together while I'm at this state,,, hope we will find each other again,,, it string of fate,,,( your favourite word)...

plan to do side income a clean one this time,,, any idea???
hehehe its kinda weird i ask here and all of you reply in text,,, hey I'm not complaining i prefer it that way hehehe,,,

on the life front i'm ok,,, its just that people i can't do it,,, heck they don't even know what i did,,, and yes i don't like to explain my self for no good reason... what this is not school,,,

no title

2010-05-03T18:03:00.000-07:00

Hmmm,,, a few things come to mind nowadays,,,
I notice that people is a creature of habit,,,
I went out as usual,,, hmmm,,, its weird I can't write any thing any more and i kinda sucks,,,

Absolut V weekend!!!

2010-04-04T07:27:00.000-07:00

First of all I would like to thank Naim,,,I had a great weekend,,, even if the weekend make me think of a few people I miss a lot,,, and hope one day I'll meet them again, and enjoy that life again...

anyway we went out have a great time,,,

my life so far have been find, I got a felling I'm trying to kill the boredom with a bit of risky business,

I thought the top part have already been publish,,, but I didn't,,,
any way Con't,,,

I have been going out for a few week now,,,fuhh,,, tired,,, but was fun,,,
the boredom have been kill by over drive been coming back home late all week,,,hohoho...

but saturday was cool,,, stay home all day... and likeing it,,,hehehe,,,
while on sunday,,,I met up with zaki and family,,, well a bit of glasgow there,,, hehehe,,, any way,,,
the week have started again,,, I don't know where i stand now,,,

Go on,,,

2010-03-19T20:44:00.000-07:00

Fuh Finlay I got time to do this I have been wanting to write this for 3 month now,,,
but by the time I got time i have forgot half of the thing I want to write hehehe,,,
ok let see whats new hmmm I have start working,,,back to the same place I've work before I went to sunderland,,, kinda weird but like people say you must have goal in life so I got my goal the only way I can ac hive that goal quicker is by doing this,,,

I have move to a new place, It nice its big enough for three person but two in the house is just ok,,, but it got a great view,,, hahaha the promo of the house,,,and the deal sealer,,, hahaha,,,Sucker for a nice view,,,(the top is the view from my house),,,

hmmm,,, what else,,, oh ya If you want to fly solo go ahead ,,,

Yea!!!my stuff have arrive but huhuhu but not undamaged,,, huhuhu,,, plus I need more book space,,,
I'm setting up a new blog to be put up soon for a book I'm thinking of writing,,, have not figure out what the title are,,,yet,,,
I going to start on my hobbies again,,, but need a few stuff for it,,,
I need to arrange afew things in my life again,,, hohoho,,, need to get a start on things,,, want to come ???

Je veux ton amour Et je veux ton vengence

2009-11-13T06:24:00.001-08:00

OK I have been thinking about this for a month or more,,,
now i finally got the time to write it down,,,

(Random stuff)
"Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ton vengence"

I want your love And I want your vengeance
(end)

Have ever notice that if a person really want something he would do well, I always wonder what drove this people to be, I can't find what I want yet, how to find something you want???
Do we have goals in life?
Is our goals
(OK new year is coming 2010 hohoho )
like most of you know my birth day is the day after new year so technically its new year,
and as usual new year come and new year resolution are made so far for the past 9 years all i have been able to achieved my goals,,, and how many is depending on my age that year so OK this might be the only time you going to actually see me write down my age hehehe,,,
this year I'm going to be עשרים וחמש ( seriously you think I'm going to give my age that easy)

A resolution is a commitment that an individual makes to a project or the reforming of a habit, often a lifestyle change that is generally interpreted as advantageous. That's what wiki said hehehe,,,
SO ,,, lets list down the next year resolution hmmm

Firstly
Get things straighten up and start the 5 year working plan,,,

Second
Find things that I really want to do,,,

3rd
Save up to buy 1/2 a house that I want,,,

4th
Get back in shape,,,Work out!!!

5th
Learn Greek !!! already started,,,

6th
Learn Italian !!! After finish number 5,,,

7th

Learn something about business

8th

Learn something on management

9th

Finish the entire miniature model

10th

Make networking work again

11th

Re-build the company

12th

Get all the paper work sort-out

13th

Start the “one million” search

Love Dubai it was fun,,, hasn't got around to finish this and hmmm run out of idea don't think I can finish all 25 so lets finish 13 first if got to finish this by july going to add another dozen hehehe,,,

The most common resolution I found on the web are:
Lose weight, Get out of debt, Become more organized, Maintain a diary, Save money, Improve grades, Get a better job, Get fit, Eat right, Get a better education, Drink less alcohol, Quit smoking, Reduce stress, Take a trip, Volunteer to help others, Be less grumpy, Be more independent, Learn something new (such as a foreign language or music), Try to get up early in the morning, Time management, Help the poor

Only God Can Judge Me,,,

2009-10-15T06:56:00.001-07:00

Word are only word,,,
If everybody stick to it all would be well,
Why do you need to care what other people say,
to me as long as it does not effect my eating habit,
I can only say Fuck off,,,
Fuck everybody else, yaknowhatI'msayin?(4-tay)
hahaha,,,
I kinda like my life the way it is,
I don't see why I should change it because people say they are uncomfortable,
Like I have been comfortable with them around,
But one thing tick me off, They can say a lot of stuff I know you guys are old ( Old is not the only word I want to used but for now its fine)
Like most of you who know me truly know me,
know that I don't like two face people they just tick me off especially if they did that to Me, My family of people who I really put as my friends (Which is usually unlikely but there are a few)
back to the story they been bad mouth a few of people who are I'm happy to call friends, they put my name in there some where there too but bug off the things they said I heard worse so does not do any too me, but I see them being friendly with them I say its OK, but come on are you blind those are the people you bad mouth but you just act so how do I put it with out going too rude( that is weird ).
I did my part I did tell them they say they want to act for now since those are old people don't want to be a murderer... hahaha,,,
Well I hope now after this, this people will think before they say any thing how the saying goes " Belajar bertingkat tingkat tapi perangai macm ape" = Study up to many floor but act as ,,,hope that the right translation... hehehe

Just call it as it is,,,

2009-10-11T11:21:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wonder why can't people just call it as it is,,,
with out have to know what behind every thing other people do,,,
I don't know why this time it bugs me ,,, usually i never care what people say,,,
well probably because this time i does its annoy me i guess,
Why can't people mind their own business,

p.s : I know you gong to read this so tell your friends not to get involve in our relatitionship I don't want a relationship with them,,,

Never again,,,

2009-08-28T20:13:00.000-07:00

In one way, things could never be the same again,,,
I do not know how to return to the way we were,,,
I know that you are mad at me,
but I did it for you,
I do not want to hear bad things about you,,,

I do not need to lie, the truth is enough to tell the story,,,
As I lay here wishing to go back in time,,,
for the moment we have lost,
and will never gain back,

I know in time I will move on like you said,,,
but I my head you still lingers,
I wish I could know what you are thinking so that I may,,,

Now as I go tothe next chapter in my life,
I hopeour string of fate will come to pass again,,,
and when that time come you will be your old self which I love,,,

Life with a question mark,,,

2009-08-06T14:43:00.000-07:00

That is my life after you, wondering what now, what will, what is what,,,
you have always be my go to guy,,, you can't know all but you try,,,
promise I made to you I still hold them,,,
I wish that I could still live in the moment with you again,,,

OK the real topics,,,
been IM with my friend,,,
suddenly she ask me or we talk about my other half,,,
she said that what if my other half search for another person,,,
that i would cry,,, for god sake,,, why on earth i would cry for something like that,,,
its that person choice,,,

This bug me,,, i don't know why,,, why would anyone who now me say i would be sad because of something like this,,,
furthermore there is a huge event happening to my friend,,, and i don't know why people come up to me and ask me am I sad how am I after the event the days coming up to the event,,, In my head goes some thing like "Wha???""why???",,,
Hey I'm happY for my friend but I have no other feeling for this situation ,,, hmmm,,,
What the f*&%,,,

I just did the FB quiz,,, (for those who don't have FB a.k.a facebook,,, its an application where you answer some question (duhhh) and base on that the result came out) the quiz title is: How Many Babies Will You Have and i got is "You will have no babies!
You won't have any babies. You like to have lots of freedom in your life and having children isn't a big priority. There is a chance you will adopt later in life, or change your mind. " and it got me thinking,,, this quiz is randomly right !!! why would any one want a baby if they could not have baby... we were watching ER (yes the show still on air) and one of the doctor was try-ing to have kid so i ask why is it so important to some people to have kids??? people would respond to me usually with religion answer or to get the fu-fillnest of life,,, (like huh???) so what is the real answer,,,( we say it just because of peer pressure!!!) hahaha... I wonder... hehehe,,, I think this part is related to my older post the "Saturday, 28 March 2009 :If this pain was for our secret,,, "

what else is in my mind,,,( transferring data,,,,,,,,,) hehehe,,,

Forsaken the past,,, must we lied and do nothing,,, It has been cold since those days,,, never though that the past would be forsaken,,,

“It was a good run”
I know what it mean,
but what why now?
I keep hearing it in my mind, , ,

how should it be put, , ,
I have made my bed with the grand ureka div 15, , ,

“at least I can go on”

I misz you guys. . .

"till the very last drop of blood,
if it end now,
I have no regret,
becoz I know that I have known you,
It have been fun,
In the end,
It was a good run."

I'll better start writing my book again before its to late to finish it,,,

post this on first can't put that one in this blog yet,,, who have link to the other one know where to go,,,

I'll edit this one later,,,

The Replay,,, shall I go...

2009-07-17T17:00:00.000-07:00

If you think as i do you can say that with one choice i have change every thing, I'm not saying that changing is bad,,, but taken this path that I have take all what I have forgot ever since I was a kid,,,
because i want to see the world i change to some thing way way difference,

when you know when it occurs you will think what if, I have never stay ,,, what if I have gone with him, I know if i do that I will never see or know the people I know now.

now he is back into my life, what shall I do, I know the same offer still apply,
What should I do now,,,

(I won't go into detail... )

Just know if I go,,, I'll never see any of the people who love me,,, minus the one who will be going with me...

Trill of the hunt,,,

2009-05-12T06:34:00.000-07:00

Where shall we begin,,,
from origin???
hahaha... hope did not make WB mad,,,
as always I begin with a question,,,
why do we like hunting,,,(don't give me those animal right bullshit,,,)
they say that because they can go hunting,,,( don't get me wrong hunting is not animal testing,,, testing is just cruel while hunting is sport/food...)
back to topic,,,
this hunting does not mean the animal kind this the dating/hunting /mating/one night stand thingy,,,
I not saying I'm bad or good,,, this is just who I'm...
It start a few years ago,,, I know she had a Bf-ish, so as usual as long she have uniqueness that I like,,,but at the first stand i was with some one else (this never stop me before but this time i was not in the mood),,, this when the second phase i meat up with her,,, we star to hang out,,, slowly we become close and at this time she is in limbo either to break off or keep with her bf,,, and as usual me take over hahaha,,,but after a month i have to go to England for study,,, and at this time i was bored with her already,,, so time to say bye bye,,, the thing i can't forget is when she send me off i told her not to,,,hehehe,,,( ajib told me that is the first time he heard a girl cry,,, hahaha,,,am I cruel hey i told her not to come right?) after that i did not hear any thing from her except where she send an offline message " you lied" ekk hahaha at that time i don't give a f***,,,
any how now the story become good,,, after a year she goes to Ireland to further her study,,, who know me would know that i like to listen to gossip,,, but i don't spread gossip,,, hahaha don't know what that mean any how,,,
i found out that she is living with her ex,,, (culture info; Asian people don't allow boys and girl to live under one house before marriage ,,, ) ,,, i don't really care for living in the same house but the news was she was living in the same room,,, hohoho,,, i think I laugh the entire week when i heard this,,, some time i still do. now is the bla bla bal part (can't remember all because there are to many story came from Ireland about her,,,) a few weeks ago she buzz me in IM,,, so being a nice person as I'm I say hi, than we bla bla bla,,, all the sudden she ask the question that i though she would never ask,,, the what happen one,,, hehehe,,, so as I always do I blame it on her,,,hahaha,,, all the sudden she said she is going to get married/engage to me its the same,,,
so i said congrats and all that,,, (as you know it ,,, this poke my interest ,,, so i start to plan my plan to broke the thing off just to see either i can do it or not,,,bare in mind that i do have a person in my heart so i know that i do not want her but just want to see if i can get her...)
two days after that a friend call,,, and she told me that she lied to me ,,, huhuhu,,, I never got a chance to set plan i motion,,, huhuhu,,, because i lost interest since she is not getting married,,,

now what shall I do,,, for fun,,,hmmmmm,,,
huhuhu,,, now she try to add me in facebook ,,, comment on friendster,,, huhuhu,, but i just ignore hahaha,,,

p.s; thanks to gucci for the picture hehehe,,,

If this pain was for our secret,,,

2009-03-28T08:34:00.000-07:00

"If this pain was for our secret, how much would we have to endure before every thing is alright ?"

you hear all this people say that if there is no pain in life whats the point of living,,,
but what if the paint is to much would you still consider in living???

hmmm,,,
hey I'm not saying that i want to commit a suicide or any thing it just that,,,
why do we do the things we do,
i got me wondering,,,
why do we study till we got "PhD, Dr, ext..."
why do we work in a job we don't even like,,,
(I know if money come into mind we are a slave to it)
but is it worth wild to do the things that we do,,,

we put on the "game face, Mr smiley face, the sun is up face" to go to work or what ever we have to do ,,,
I remember my first month of working for a consultan company,,,
my face felt like i have just had botox done,
after a few month of work it become natural,,,
but you do the work usual ,
you don't feel like a drone, working bee,or something similar...
until someone point it out to you,,,
then you realise what you have become one,,,
i don't know about others when i was a kid(some claim I'm still is),,,
I make a promise that I would never be those kind of person,,,
I don't want to become one of those boring people who sleep before 12,,,
wakes up go to work,,, come home eats dinner watch some tv or do work,,,
go to bed and do the same thing again,,, a stereotype person,,,
no! I don't want those,,,And I don't want to be the type of person who know they have sunk in to this boring plade person and try to makeup for it by surrounding them with kids hoping that a child laughter will bring a smile (urban myth),,,
I have been watching alots of my colse friend been drag into this life style,,,(can you still consider living),,,and I always remember they used to say want to do greater things,,, when you past that line there is no turning back,,,its all bull shit if you say that you will do it after the kids have groneup,,, you will be too old,,,
so at the end the question still there,,,
would you still consider in living???

p.s; the teddy did this just for photoshot,,, pls don't call him to do work,,, hehehe,,,

One MorE StorY fOr thE RoaD

2009-02-18T03:31:00.000-08:00

I always wonder,,,
aT the end of the day would we tell our story or the story dies with us,,,
I guess its ego,,, the story still lock with in it the promise that go along with it...
I do want to go to you but i know in no way i would start it,,, my ego is still here,,,
every time we see each other,,, a rush of something i cant explain nor i know how,,,
Every mention of your name or the things remind me of you,,,
makes me feel sad knowing that thing could never be like it once were,,,
I'll always wonder what do you think,,,
how do you want it to be,,,
i guess I never know,,,
so this is how its going to be till the end???

What I want is something I know is hard for others,
What should I do,,,
To live in this fake smile every single day,
With hello meaning hell no,,,
I hate this part of my life,,,

FoR alL thE sInS tHaT i HaV doNE
I know something we could not or would not tell,

Well I know some one, by not saying the name so this secret is save,,,
with me till the end,,,

If I lose ,,,

2009-02-09T14:17:00.000-08:00

If I lose my humanity would you still be beside me???

From the beginning I have always this mask,,,
when soul come and go,
the mask grown heavier,

Sometimes I do take it off,
But never in front of you,

I miz you so,,,
I don't know how long I can wear this mask,,,
I'm tired ...
If and when I took off this mask,
What I was and is you can see,,,

No angel can see me no more,,,
When this day arrive, , ,
I would like to know,,,

If I lose my humanity would you still be beside me???

from Banksy

2009-01-10T20:24:00.001-08:00

Only when the last tree
Has been cut down
And the last river
Has dried to a trickle
Will man finally realize
That we cannot eat money
And reciting old proverbs
Makes you sound like a twat

You were right,,,

2008-12-24T19:28:00.000-08:00

You were right on,,,
that we should not change something that is good,
for some thing that is unsure,
Now what should I do,,,

I miss you guys already,,,
(to be continue. . .)

End of SoMeThing tHat I wiSh woUld neVer End,,,

2008-12-08T11:21:00.000-08:00

It was fun,,,
don't take it the wrong way,,,
I luv u guys ,,, it was fun,,,
but I need to reach my goal,,,
at the time that I have set for my self,,,

Hope you would understand,,,
what I must do,,,

I guest when you change i need to change too,
but I did luv the time when we all had fun,,,
I need to finish this since ,,,
I need to,,,

Bolging,,,

2008-12-08T07:42:00.000-08:00

http://grantureka15.blogspot.com/
keep in mind,,, to shhhhhh,,,

W.t.F,,, Am I doInG...

2008-09-27T18:08:00.003-07:00

I don't know what I'm doing,,,
I can no longer see the future,,,
I do even know the gift of man can still be apply to me,,,

If I Fu@# this One Up where To next???

My head hurt as i lay down on my bed,,,
I lost the edge to greed, Lust, and wrath...

My life is split up into two,
shall I go and may loose the only good future i can see
or
shall I stay and my heart die each day,,,
this is the things that I must think for my self,
since you are no longer apart of me,,,

That what you get,,,

2008-05-15T18:17:00.000-07:00

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.

It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.

And why do we like to hurt so much?

I can't decide

You have made it harder just to go on

And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong

I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.

And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.

'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.

I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.

Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.

Paramore" that what You Get"

I guest that what I'll get for liking you,

I don't know why I like you,

I can't say why,

or why would I like you,

I tried not to like you but,

that as far as I can go,
,,,
What ever Happen now,,,
I like to say thank you,,,

,,,

This is what I Have become,,,

2008-05-07T10:40:00.000-07:00

This is what i have become,,,

I can no longer go back,,,

I can only go forward,,,

with out you I have loss my way

till there is no way i can find way back to you,,,

,,,

but I'm happy that I did know you even for brief time...

soon there will be good bye,

I don't know how i will go from there,

but I always will,

will I find my self on the right track or will I be loss again.

,,,

Thanks for trying to put me on track,

No haPPy EndinG,,,

2008-04-19T15:22:00.000-07:00

This is the way you left me,

I'm not pretending.

No hope, no love, no glory,

No Happy Ending.

This is the way that we love,

Like it's forever.

Then live the rest of our life,

But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life

Can't get no love without sacrifice

If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well

A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

I guest my love life going to end soon,

My heart can no longer know how to say or do any more,

as I write this i will count how many time I have love a stranger,

The first one was her,

the name that I'll still use (for my secret word )

but she is too old and our religion would not let us be,

But we departed with a common knowledge that we love each other,

the second one I guest it was the person who was just to fool around,

As time pass it strange that the way this person care for me,

It was fun even if it just for the moment,

I was happy,

but our work took us apart,

I will always miss the moment.

Now this is from the person who at first I want to help,

Loving her is something I have to learn,

until I reach the point where I did Love her,

She just left with out a reason,

so I guest the song there was for her,

What Have Happen To Me???

2008-03-08T15:04:00.000-08:00

This Sad Life,,,

I don't felt like I need to say sorry but I know I should,,,
When You left me,,,I should felt sad But I felt nothing,,,
You were just another stoping point I know it,,,
Even when You say those word,,,

"im the person who kind of ego tnggi...kalo sayangkan seseorang mostly i takkan tunjuk that i love him...i also kind of keras hati but sumtimes cepat menangis..kememeh...i try to find a guy that really understand me..but its hard finally i realized that u is the person that really know me and understand me..but what a pity...u are staying far away now..might be sumtimes u felt like im not appreciate u but actually im really aprreciate u in my life..neway...i really miss u muchhh...love u..."

I know who you are before you even say this word,,,
Well luv all I can say is your lost,,,

You just a spare,,,

Dream,,,

2008-02-20T12:36:00.000-08:00

Is It real?
Our eye to the future,,,
when I see what will happen shall I Change it,
if it not to my likeing,,,
read this its from a song:
(you may know it)
I know a place that we can go to
A place where no one knows you
They won't know who we are
I know a place that we can run to
And do those things we want to

They won't know who we are
Let me take you there
I wanna take you there
I know a place that we've forgotten
A place we won't get caught in
They won't know who we are
(they won't know, won't know)

I know a place where we can hide out
And turn our hearts inside out
They won't know who we are

--------------------------------------------------
I called him he say,,, yes,,,
well I called the other him first but he was busy,,,
I don't know why I called hin next,,,
we have not been in contact for some time now,,,

and I guest he would be the only one who
when receive my call won't say he is busy
and no matter what when he call
would wait till I hang up before he hang up,,,

What would I do???
weird ???
to think that I would have this type of problem,,,

Can I run from my duty,,,
I ran before kill and erase my past,,,
Up to no proof,,,

now if I run, I would erase me,,,
They would still search for me,,,
with not enought resource can I pull this trick again???

When Time do stop, , ,

2008-01-18T14:09:00.000-08:00

I never notice this before, I would the time of my life if the time stand still, for that eight months felt like two years, , ,

Now time felt like a speeding train with no station ahead, , , for it to stop,

I misz those feeling ,

To suffer this mortality, , ,

I know I out live those who condemn me to this plane of existence, and I did...

This mortal mind is to limited, , ,

I can't even remember the Gate of Entrance, , ,

"Qui"

Ritorno ad essere Luxuria e Avaritia

Hmmm. . .

2008-01-12T15:16:00.000-08:00

All is good, , ,
I guest if i revert to me again, , ,
Every thing would be alright, , ,

Back to being me!!!

The life I left behind was not and far from perfect ,
but it was fun,
It just to sad What I Want can never be done for this plane of existence,

"For this period of time only, We Will never be in after this"
This what I always say this to let them know the reality , , ,
I guest I was telling it to my self, yet to fall to this level,,, this plane of existence,
What will Happen???
I'm Trying to be good,
Can I???

I don't know, , ,

2007-12-29T04:22:00.000-08:00

hmmm, , ,
Have you ever felt like , , , you did something wrong???
well let start from the . . .well start, , ,
We were all a group of friends, (Good friends),
there are a lot of us, let see hmmm. . .
There's Me, Nizam, Kambing, Nuhaa, Eka, Haikal, Wan , Saifudin, nasiri, Emed, sharul, (well a few more my head can remember now)

one of my friends use to be a whole lot smarter than me, heck i run to him for advice,
he use to be nice, , , than after i left the school he change, i never thought of it at first,
he is the one who want to get out of that school i apply because well he apply first, he did not make it, i did and i did not know what i got my self into either,

(some part of me always wonder what happen if i never left that life,(don't want to make the same mistake twice)

i just feel bad knowing now his life is not what he think it should be, he use to talk about it, , ,

some times i think that what ever we do, there are always a chance that this my never work out, is there a way or method that to secure something ???

I know. i Have my fair share of the down of life, no body know about it, i wonder what will they think or do,
if the gift of eye of time is mine but can't use it . . .
I guest where I'm getting at here is, how do i face my mortality?

As I Fall and rise, , ,

2007-11-25T05:00:00.000-08:00

As I fall and rise,

There are a few chapters that I can’t forget nor I want to.
I guess this is the end of this chapter and waiting for a new one to start.
I’m sad that I can’t be the one to start it.

Each chapter there is always one or two companion by my side. . .

The first chapter -begin of memories
The second chapter -never told
The third chapter -no memories
The forth chapter -holding hand
The fifth chapter -the sin of lies z
The sixth chapter -one and two
The seventh chapter -between one and two
The eighth chapter -the lagoon
The ninth chapter -the night of “luxuria”
The tenth chapter -he
The eleventh chapter -the transaction
The twelfth chapter - black, red, yellow
The thirteenth chapter -break time
The forth teen chapter -serious but fun
The fifth teen chapter -not a clue
The sixth teen chapter -My way in life
As I go on
I pick up those who are “held in esteem”
I do not wish to astray from whom. . .
But things can’t be help. . .
that just this side of the story, , ,
this does not include the
Charlatan side of the story. . .
Hmmm that going to be a six part episode

Hmmm dose not work. . .

2007-11-25T04:22:00.000-08:00

My way of finding way when I’m lost some how does not work here,
Usualy just go straight would do the trick but some how huhuhu
I went and reach Durham city, , ,
Hahaha
So I guest i can't use that rule here, , , so what rule should i use???

and on the way back I just notice the place where I want to go just 10 min from where I was, , ,
hahaha

Beside you, , ,

2007-11-15T20:37:00.000-08:00

To live in this world without you. . .
Is unimaginable thought, , ,

I know you were my sin. . .
and the memory of you is my punishment, , ,

We had our fun . . .
You were there when I need you,
You were there thru the up and down of my life,

How we ever know each other I can’t say that I remember. . .
We don’t have the same conmen acquaintance,
But with time my associates become you associates. . .

Than came time for us to depart. . .
Every time we get we would hear each other voice. . .

Now that our string of fate may never tangle again,,,
I could only say that I will never for sake the memory that I have of you. . .

Where to start???

2007-11-14T13:17:00.000-08:00

hmmmm