Je veux ton amour Et je veux ton vengence

OK I have been thinking about this for a month or more,,,
now i finally got the time to write it down,,,

(Random stuff)
"Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ton vengence"

I want your love And I want your vengeance
(end)

Have ever notice that if a person really want something he would do well, I always wonder what drove this people to be, I can't find what I want yet, how to find something you want???
Do we have goals in life?
Is our goals
(OK new year is coming 2010 hohoho )
like most of you know my birth day is the day after new year so technically its new year,
and as usual new year come and new year resolution are made so far for the past 9 years all i have been able to achieved my goals,,, and how many is depending on my age that year so OK this might be the only time you going to actually see me write down my age hehehe,,,
this year I'm going to be עשרים וחמש ( seriously you think I'm going to give my age that easy)

A resolution is a commitment that an individual makes to a project or the reforming of a habit, often a lifestyle change that is generally interpreted as advantageous. That's what wiki said hehehe,,,
SO ,,, lets list down the next year resolution hmmm

Firstly
Get things straighten up and start the 5 year working plan,,,

Second
Find things that I really want to do,,,

3rd
Save up to buy 1/2 a house that I want,,,

4th
Get back in shape,,,Work out!!!

5th
Learn Greek and Italian!!! already started,,,

6th
(need to think what else, will be complete before Jan1 in Dubai yeaa!!!)


The most common resolution I found on the web are:
Lose weight, Get out of debt, Become more organized, Maintain a diary, Save money, Improve grades, Get a better job, Get fit, Eat right, Get a better education, Drink less alcohol, Quit smoking, Reduce stress, Take a trip, Volunteer to help others, Be less grumpy, Be more independent, Learn something new (such as a foreign language or music), Try to get up early in the morning, Time management, Help the poor

Only God Can Judge Me,,,

Word are only word,,,
If everybody stick to it all would be well,
Why do you need to care what other people say,
to me as long as it does not effect my eating habit,
I can only say Fuck off,,,
Fuck everybody else, yaknowhatI'msayin?(4-tay)
hahaha,,,
I kinda like my life the way it is,
I don't see why I should change it because people say they are uncomfortable,
Like I have been comfortable with them around,
But one thing tick me off, They can say a lot of stuff I know you guys are old ( Old is not the only word I want to used but for now its fine)
Like most of you who know me truly know me,
know that I don't like two face people they just tick me off especially if they did that to Me, My family of people who I really put as my friends (Which is usually unlikely but there are a few)
back to the story they been bad mouth a few of people who are I'm happy to call friends, they put my name in there some where there too but bug off the things they said I heard worse so does not do any too me, but I see them being friendly with them I say its OK, but come on are you blind those are the people you bad mouth but you just act so how do I put it with out going too rude( that is weird ).
I did my part I did tell them they say they want to act for now since those are old people don't want to be a murderer... hahaha,,,
Well I hope now after this, this people will think before they say any thing how the saying goes " Belajar bertingkat tingkat tapi perangai macm ape" = Study up to many floor but act as ,,,hope that the right translation... hehehe

Just call it as it is,,,

Have you ever wonder why can't people just call it as it is,,,
with out have to know what behind every thing other people do,,,
I don't know why this time it bugs me ,,, usually i never care what people say,,,
well probably because this time i does its annoy me i guess,
Why can't people mind their own business,

p.s : I know you gong to read this so tell your friends not to get involve in our relatitionship I don't want a relationship with them,,,

Never again,,,

In one way, things could never be the same again,,,
I do not know how to return to the way we were,,,
I know that you are mad at me,
but I did it for you,
I do not want to hear bad things about you,,,

I do not need to lie, the truth is enough to tell the story,,,
As I lay here wishing to go back in time,,,
for the moment we have lost,
and will never gain back,

I know in time I will move on like you said,,,
but I my head you still lingers,
I wish I could know what you are thinking so that I may,,,

Now as I go tothe next chapter in my life,
I hopeour string of fate will come to pass again,,,
and when that time come you will be your old self which I love,,,

Life with a question mark,,,

That is my life after you, wondering what now, what will, what is what,,,
you have always be my go to guy,,, you can't know all but you try,,,
promise I made to you I still hold them,,,
I wish that I could still live in the moment with you again,,,

OK the real topics,,,
been IM with my friend,,,
suddenly she ask me or we talk about my other half,,,
she said that what if my other half search for another person,,,
that i would cry,,, for god sake,,, why on earth i would cry for something like that,,,
its that person choice,,,

This bug me,,, i don't know why,,, why would anyone who now me say i would be sad because of something like this,,,
furthermore there is a huge event happening to my friend,,, and i don't know why people come up to me and ask me am I sad how am I after the event the days coming up to the event,,, In my head goes some thing like "Wha???""why???",,,
Hey I'm happY for my friend but I have no other feeling for this situation ,,, hmmm,,,
What the f*&%,,,

I just did the FB quiz,,, (for those who don't have FB a.k.a facebook,,, its an application where you answer some question (duhhh) and base on that the result came out) the quiz title is: How Many Babies Will You Have and i got is "You will have no babies!
You won't have any babies. You like to have lots of freedom in your life and having children isn't a big priority. There is a chance you will adopt later in life, or change your mind. " and it got me thinking,,, this quiz is randomly right !!! why would any one want a baby if they could not have baby... we were watching ER (yes the show still on air) and one of the doctor was try-ing to have kid so i ask why is it so important to some people to have kids??? people would respond to me usually with religion answer or to get the fu-fillnest of life,,, (like huh???) so what is the real answer,,,( we say it just because of peer pressure!!!) hahaha... I wonder... hehehe,,, I think this part is related to my older post the "Saturday, 28 March 2009 :If this pain was for our secret,,, "

what else is in my mind,,,( transferring data,,,,,,,,,) hehehe,,,

Forsaken the past,,, must we lied and do nothing,,, It has been cold since those days,,, never though that the past would be forsaken,,,

“It was a good run”
I know what it mean,
but what why now?
I keep hearing it in my mind, , ,

how should it be put, , ,
I have made my bed with the grand ureka div 15, , ,

“at least I can go on”

I misz you guys. . .

"till the very last drop of blood,
if it end now,
I have no regret,
becoz I know that I have known you,
It have been fun,
In the end,
It was a good run."

I'll better start writing my book again before its to late to finish it,,,

post this on first can't put that one in this blog yet,,, who have link to the other one know where to go,,,

I'll edit this one later,,,

The Replay,,, shall I go...

If you think as i do you can say that with one choice i have change every thing, I'm not saying that changing is bad,,, but taken this path that I have take all what I have forgot ever since I was a kid,,,
because i want to see the world i change to some thing way way difference,

when you know when it occurs you will think what if, I have never stay ,,, what if I have gone with him, I know if i do that I will never see or know the people I know now.

now he is back into my life, what shall I do, I know the same offer still apply,
What should I do now,,,

(I won't go into detail... )

Just know if I go,,, I'll never see any of the people who love me,,, minus the one who will be going with me...

Trill of the hunt,,,

Where shall we begin,,,
from origin???
hahaha... hope did not make WB mad,,,
as always I begin with a question,,,
why do we like hunting,,,(don't give me those animal right bullshit,,,)
they say that because they can go hunting,,,( don't get me wrong hunting is not animal testing,,, testing is just cruel while hunting is sport/food...)
back to topic,,,
this hunting does not mean the animal kind this the dating/hunting /mating/one night stand thingy,,,
I not saying I'm bad or good,,, this is just who I'm...
It start a few years ago,,, I know she had a Bf-ish, so as usual as long she have uniqueness that I like,,,but at the first stand i was with some one else (this never stop me before but this time i was not in the mood),,, this when the second phase i meat up with her,,, we star to hang out,,, slowly we become close and at this time she is in limbo either to break off or keep with her bf,,, and as usual me take over hahaha,,,but after a month i have to go to England for study,,, and at this time i was bored with her already,,, so time to say bye bye,,, the thing i can't forget is when she send me off i told her not to,,,hehehe,,,( ajib told me that is the first time he heard a girl cry,,, hahaha,,,am I cruel hey i told her not to come right?) after that i did not hear any thing from her except where she send an offline message " you lied" ekk hahaha at that time i don't give a f***,,,
any how now the story become good,,, after a year she goes to Ireland to further her study,,, who know me would know that i like to listen to gossip,,, but i don't spread gossip,,, hahaha don't know what that mean any how,,,
i found out that she is living with her ex,,, (culture info; Asian people don't allow boys and girl to live under one house before marriage ,,, ) ,,, i don't really care for living in the same house but the news was she was living in the same room,,, hohoho,,, i think I laugh the entire week when i heard this,,, some time i still do. now is the bla bla bal part (can't remember all because there are to many story came from Ireland about her,,,) a few weeks ago she buzz me in IM,,, so being a nice person as I'm I say hi, than we bla bla bla,,, all the sudden she ask the question that i though she would never ask,,, the what happen one,,, hehehe,,, so as I always do I blame it on her,,,hahaha,,, all the sudden she said she is going to get married/engage to me its the same,,,
so i said congrats and all that,,, (as you know it ,,, this poke my interest ,,, so i start to plan my plan to broke the thing off just to see either i can do it or not,,,bare in mind that i do have a person in my heart so i know that i do not want her but just want to see if i can get her...)
two days after that a friend call,,, and she told me that she lied to me ,,, huhuhu,,, I never got a chance to set plan i motion,,, huhuhu,,, because i lost interest since she is not getting married,,,

now what shall I do,,, for fun,,,hmmmmm,,,
huhuhu,,, now she try to add me in facebook ,,, comment on friendster,,, huhuhu,, but i just ignore hahaha,,,


p.s; thanks to gucci for the picture hehehe,,,